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18 March 2006 @ 08:40 pm

I'm so fuckin' tired of all this shit...you have no idea.

I got yelled at a second ago. By my mom.
Guess why? Because I bought a fuckin' book!
"The Perks of Being a Wallflower".
(Oh, and "Rainbow High", but she didn't see that one.)
She read the back cover and got mad.

She says I'm crazy.
She says I'm obsessed with sex and drugs and gay people.
She says it's not normal for a 'heterosexual teenage girl'.

Hmph. Whatever.
I'm not that much of a typical straight teenage girl anyway.

I know it's stupid, but I can't stop crying.
And worse - I'm crying and writing in my LJ.
That deserves the Emo Award™ of the day.

(I have the right to be emo from time to time.
Just try living with my mom.)
Current Mood: sadsad
Current Music: seconds - le tigre
11 March 2006 @ 08:16 pm

LJ is a fuckin' BITCH, dammit.

I'm updating for two reasons:

1) I tried commenting on Jesus' entries, but El-Jay wouldn't let me. So Jesus, if you read this...I loved your vocal messages. And your voice is not creepy at all! I like it a lot. (Okay, I'll shut up now, I sound like a creepy stalker or something...) Your journal updates make my day. Every. Single. Time.

2) Everything is happening at the same time in my so-called offline life (assuming I have one).

- Melody has a boyfriend, apparently.

- And I have one too, apparently. He treats me like a queen. He's cute. He does everything I tell him without questioning. He's smart.
But you know what's terrible? I don't like him. I'm totally using the poor guy. I'm too muy of a wimp to tell him that we are not dating and that I am not interested. Good thing I haven't met him in person since 2004. Viva MSN Messenger.

- I'm going to see Fall Out Boy in May. Yay! :D
Oh, and I'm still laughing at the 'scandals'. I just can't help it. It's too much drama not to be amused.
Lying is the most fun a guy can have without getting his pants off in front of a Sidekick phone with built-in camera.

- If they don't update the Idiot Club Q&A by the end of the month, I buy a fuckin' plane ticket to California, track down the staff members, torture them, and force them to update it. Period.

Sorry for wasting your time.

Good night.
Current Mood: confusedconfused
Current Music: build god, then we'll talk - p!atd
21 February 2006 @ 08:25 pm


My friend David just asked me to sneak into a pharmacy and buy him lube so he can get laid on Friday. D:

I'm scared of his new boyfriend, Francis. He likes horseback-riding. He plays violin. He makes his own clothes. He listens to emocore. He looks kinda macho.
It's like...uhmm...throwing a bunch of stereotypes in a blender. O:

'Nyways. I got homework to do. And I'm actually gonna do it.
Just to...show everyone that I can. Ha.

(end of pointless update.)
Current Mood: rushedrushed
Current Music: rape me - nirvana
15 February 2006 @ 04:29 pm

I'm on school break until next Monday.
I don't know what the fuck I can do to kill some time.
Except improvizing dance moves on Bowie's "Jean Genie".

Today, I realized three things:
1) I definitely can't cook instant noodles.
2) The microwave is not your friend.
3) Photoshop can do miracles.

The said Photoshop miracle is behind the lj-cut:
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A picture of me in which I - omg miracle - look okay.
Well, I look drunkstonedemoweird, but at least I don't look like a crossover between Alien and Predator.
(I felt like sharing. So you LJ friends know who you're dealing with. x__o;)

P.S.- I'll never take caffeine again. Those cappuccino-milk-thingies get right to my brain and make me do weird/retarded stuff.

P.P.S.- I should try to write a decent, coherent entry once. O:
Current Mood: hyperhyper
Current Music: don't drink poison - le tigre
30 January 2006 @ 05:46 pm

Today in the cafeteria:

David: She smiled at me.
Me: Who?
David: You know...her. Melody.
Me: Yes, and?
David: She smiled at me. As in, "omg i want you now plz k thx".
Me: Fuck. You.
David: I swear! I could date her.
Me: ...
David: I guess that's the only excuse you'll ever have to get near her.
Me: *bitchslap*

The only girl I fall for is probably crushing on my only gay friend.

Life is unfair. D:
Current Mood: infuriatedwtf, mate.
Current Music: multiply & divide - the soviettes
29 January 2006 @ 09:26 pm

I posted a song fic on ComingClean today.
It's horribly cliché'd, but I like it. I think.
It's kinda sad. But still horribly corny.
Billie Joe x Mike. Oh, the angst, the emo-ness of it all. O:

It's under the name "Why Does It Always Rain On Me?".
*hint hint*

Aaaand right now it's only 9:30pm and I'm falling asleep.
Plus, I didn't do any homework.

I fail at offline life, definitely. D:
Current Mood: tiredtired
Current Music: orgasm addict - buzzcocks
29 January 2006 @ 10:31 am

I woke up at 4am, and decided that it was time for a layout change.
I'm still wondering why I changed it, since I only post here every three months or so. Uhmm. But it's pretty.

So here it is. My new layout. The result of listening to the same Fall Out Boy record over and over.

I bet it would have been better-looking if I had been awake when I designed it. Oh well.
Current Mood: sleepysleepy
Current Music: i slept with someone in fall out boy [...] - fall out boy
21 December 2005 @ 07:26 pm

Ah, lolz.
Happy-happy day today, uhuh.

I had that debate in French to do, the one about gay marriage.
And I pwn3d those bitches. Everyone told me so. :]

Someone said: "Religion doesn't approve."
I replied: "Jesus approves."
They said: "How would you know?"
I replied: "She's my friend on LJ."

This girl, Christine [horribly preppy and with enough hair spray on her head to make a hole in the ozone layer] said at one point: "Well, being gay is a choice, so they should know the consequences".

Everyone in the class started yelling at her. T'was fun. <3

So yeah, I think we totally won.

But after class, in the corridors, this guy [Marc-André] came to me while I was walking with David and asked: "Are you really for gay marriage?"
So, um, I told him I was. And he said: "Oh. I'm not."
w00t. How interesting. I don't give a fuck, but whatever.

Of course, had to prove his point. "I think it's just a phase. Fad. Whatever. I mean, they'll get over it. Being gay."
David nearly murdered him. I nearly kicked his ass, but I'm to civilized for that [haha yeah right].

I told him that he wouldn't know. He said: "Yeah, just an impression".
Riiiight, fucker. But David told me I was acting way to concerned by all that stuff.
He told me: "I'm the gay one. You can be on my side, but not that much." Hmph. ):

I'm not gonna see Melody until January 10th. I already miss her.
Too bad she barely remembers my name. Oh well.

Oh, and guess what BIG EVENT there is in two days??
Yup. I get my Tré Cool action figure. <333
Current Mood: excitedxmas soon.
Current Music: punk rock christmas - sex pistols
11 December 2005 @ 09:27 pm

Survey stolen from a bajillion people at the same time.

Seven Things to Do Before I Die:
- Meet Green Day
- Go to a Green Day concert (near the stage plz k thx)
- Hug a rock star
- Write a book that contains gay sex scenes
- Get a tattoo
- Skip school with friends
- Learn to play guitar

Seven Things I Can’t Do:
- Live without teh Intarweb
- Stop swearing
- Stop talking about Green Day
- Leave the computer when I'm asked to
- Not fucking up the computer on a daily basis
- Not eat between meals
- Socialize

Seven Things that Attract Me To My Significant Other:
- Her eyes
- Her hair
- Her pretty voice
- Her makeup (eyeliner, guh)
- Her lips
- Her overall beauty *o*
- Probably the fact that I don't know anything about her

Seven Things I Say Most Often:
- "Oh emm gee!"
- "Good morning sunshine."
- "Y'know how much I love you, right...?"
- "What the fuck."
- "FUCK!"
- "Holy motherfuckin' shit!"
- "I need a hug."

Seven Books (or Series) I Love:
- Boy Meets Boy
- About A Boy
- Interview With The Vampire
- The Catcher In The Rye
- Harry Potter
- The Georgia Nicholson serie
- Err...manga. Many of them.

Seven Movies I Would Watch Over and Over Again:
- Ferris Bueller's Day Off
- Bullet In A Bible
- White Christmas [...]
- About A Boy
- Any Pokemon movie [........]
- The Santa Clause
- Chicago

IN 2005 HAVE I:
Hugged someone? Yes. A million times.
Gotten into a fight? Yes...
Cried? Fuck yes.
Smoked? Yeah.
Drank alcohol? Yesh.
Kissed someone on the cheek? Yes.
Reunited with an old friend? Not exactly.
Been suspended? Nope.
Let something go? No.
Been whipped? Yeah, with a shirt. v _v
Learned any important lessons? Yeah. "Leave the gay boys alone, and get over it."
Got a kiss on the cheek? Yes.
Kissed someone on the lips? Nuh-uh.
Considered suicide? Who? Me? No...I've only tried to stop breathing for a few minutes.
Gone to a funeral? No.
Had to get over someone? Yeah...
Fall in love? Yes.
Cut/dyed your hair drastically? Yeah.
Flirted? Uh, kind of.
Been backstabbed? Of course.
Taken somebody's pants off? No.
Taken somebody's shirt off? No...well, almost.
Had sex? Nope.
Missed someone? Yes.
Hit someone? Yes.
Broken something really important to you? No.
Cuddled with someone? Yes, every day of the week.
Held hands? Yes.
Made out? No.
Had your heart broken? Yes.
Broken somebody's heart? Uh...nah.
Done something you really regretted? Yeah, as always.
Laughed so hard that it hurt? Yes.
Cried so hard that it hurt? Yes.
Had someone tell you that they like you? Yeah.
Had someone tell you that they love you? No.
Got cheated on? Well...it's not like we were dating or anything...
Gone on a date? No.
Got dumped? No quite.
Dumped someone? No.
Made a new screen name? Manymanymany screen names.
Lost a friend? Yes. ):
Gotten any tattoos/piercings? No.
Watched porn? Try to guess. B)
Been in a love/hate relationship? Yeah.
Liked someone so much that it hurt? Yes.
Loved someone so much that it hurt? Yes.
Been grounded? Haha, for sure.

lost: Maxime. We don't talk anymore.
found: I'm not really sure about that one...

found: none...yet. *w00t determination*
lost: none.

weight: 130-140 lbs. Changes every fuckin' day.
piercings/tattoos: none.
height: 5'9"
hair: brown, with a bit of fushia
other: I wear glasses. Whoopeedoo.

careers: professional lazy kid.

NONE! I don't study. And I fail every subject k thx.

Nearly fail math
Want to run away
Get mad at random people
Make that fuckin' computer crash

Get over Mister I'm-Gay-And-I-Fuck-Your-Best-Friend
Get better at drawing
Get into Green Day (and manymanymany other bands)
Write decent slash fanfic (and sex scenes, yay)

Fall in love with a girl
Become an obsessive fangirl
Become addicted to NC-17 GD slash fics
Hide really big secrets about me
Get a LJ account [heh]

Convince my pretty Melody not to change schools
Find a way to tell her that I like her
Become e-famous
Run away with friends temporarily
Write a really really really good fanfic
Meet Green Day [yeah...I can dream]

...I fail at life. And I'm too lazy to do a lj-cut.
Current Mood: lazylazy
Current Music: michael - franz ferdinand